If I Should by Chance
Fumbi Dabiri
Published Spring 2020
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If I should by chance
Embrace all I should
Not too much or too little
But just enough
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Will I then be satisfied?
Will this thirst then be quenched?
Will my soul no longer yearn for more?
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If I should by chance
Listen to all the hate that
I have so come to withstand
All along
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Will I be able to look past them?
Will my fragile heart be hardened already?
Will I seek the vengeance I long for or strive for peace?
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If I should by chance
Limit myself and keep silent
About what constitutes as normal
In the world now
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Will I be part of the problem?
Will I be eaten alive by the guilt and injustice?
Will I ultimately become the very thing which I loathe?
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If I should by chance
Change about myself
What society deems admissible
And acceptable
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Will I be able to truly face my reflection?
Will I just be a mindless puppet that seemingly seeks to please the majority?
Will I lose myself?
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If I should by chance,
Shut myself from all the hurt
And all the depressive thoughts
I am constantly bridled with
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Will I finally be able to see life anew?
Will I give myself the strength to get rid of them?
Will it be another chapter that is left unwritten and eventually unread?
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If I should by chance
End this poem here and now
Nothing more than I initially
Intended.
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Will you be annoyed or happy?
Will you be intrigued or displeased?
Will you want more or not? I leave it to you.
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Dabiri is in their 3B term of Psychology. Their statement on this piece is as follows:
“This poem represents how actions can be seen in different perspectives and how each action can have different rippling effects on an individual’s mind.”